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Friday, March 31, 2006, 8:30 PM

WHAHA..TOPIC OF THE DAY
View this blog @www.bullshitlife.blogspot.com

I,weiling and angie picture was posted there.Do you think i'm so stupid to the extent that i never read your blog?Ya..We agreed to join the cheerleading in the first place but we back out in the end.We truly understand how u feel,how many hard work and effort you had put in for the cheerleading but we really cannot afford to stayback.We know you have try to accomodate us by letting us practise the dance steps at home so that we need not stayback.I admit that we are in wrong but you shouldn't spoilt our reputation by posting our pictures in your blog.I really wish to be part of the cheerleading team but my body is physically tired.I need a break.Fine..WHATEVER.The loser should not say anything..

i am not affected in anyway.WHAT A FABULOUS DAY!


Finally it's the long awaiting weekend for me.What a bad week.Just feeling shragged and tremendous stress on me.24 hours a day is defintely not enough for me.I've tried to cut down on the amount of time to use the computer but i can never finish my homework every week.It's either i spent too much time resting or on my computer.

Weee..Time passes so fast and these 4 months was defintely a hell period.I don't know what kind of life i'm leading everyday.I don't wish to remind of all the painful memories.

Next week will have some events going on..
Wed-Upper sec cheerleading competition.(gd luck to 5a)Sorry,i let them down./2.4km nafa test!Friday-Prelim MT oral

arghh..this weekend got to go down for a jog to train up my stamina.2 more mths to olevel MT!


You are the first person that make me feel this way.
I'll keep you in my memories..




Wednesday, March 29, 2006, 6:36 PM

So fatigued today.
It's really a long day.
Low morale in the start of the morning because was really reluctant to come to school.I was physically tired from the run yesterday but i still pull myself to wake up.My mood was already so down yet i have to face the fact that i flunk 2 tests.Chemistry-19/50,Poa-19/40..arghh..really hate number 19!So coincidence that both test i got 19 marks.I defintely have to buck up.My understanding concepts might have gone wrong.How am i going to score well?Seeing my friends getting good grades make me feel so demoralise.


tired..tired..





Tuesday, March 28, 2006, 9:10 PM

I'm so dead now.
Events that my class qualify:
(4X100m)-Mix race
(4X100m)-Girls/Boys
They have done us proud!Not forgetting those who put in effort to run.*SIgh*Didnt perform well today,fail to qualify for the 4X400m race.I wasn't really in my best condition to run.At the start of the run,my legs feel weak and I can't push myself to run anymore.I slower my pace which resulted me being in the 4th position for the first runner.I felt i could have done better.Really very disappointed.Gonna rush my chem hw later.Cya.




Monday, March 27, 2006, 4:10 PM

Sad to say 1500m race is cancelled!I have make a wasted trip to the stadium.*sianzation*School is getting so bored.*yawn*Collected my class t-shirt today.It is red in colour and the size is S.I think i should have taken size 'F' instead of S cause it still look abit big for me. School will dismissed at 12.30pm tomorrow!It's been so long since school ended so early.


So many topics and subjects i am still weak in.When can i ever clarify all my doubts and be ready to sit for my olevels?

Thoughts and imagines keep apppearing in my mind,when can i ever forget it?




Saturday, March 25, 2006, 11:11 PM

I can never bring myself to forgive u.

If you think i'm not good-looking in the first place,please don't say it out.Don't compare me and your friend's gf cause i really hate it.If you think they are prettier than me so be it,it doesn't concern me.Why must you tell me in the first place?I don't think see the point why are you so determine to wait for me when i have rejected you countless times.I really hate it when you look down on me.You ask me what am i going to do during my weekend.I told you i was going to the stadium to train for my coming sports heat.Your reaction was "huh?are you sure you can run?"I wanted to tell you"Hey,can you just fuck off?".What are you trying to say.Trying to say i can't run?Trying to underestimate my ability?"Don't you ever call me again.I won't pick up your phone calls.Do you know sometimes you are just to straight-forward that you hurt someone's pride?You truly digust me.Yucks.




Friday, March 24, 2006, 6:09 PM

End of the week!Yippie!feel so good.Just reach home not long ago,haven't bath or eat.Gonna do so soon.Tomorrow will be going to the stadium to train for the coming sports heat and cheerleading.The events I will be participating in will be 4X400m and 400m,hopefully i could get inside.*pray*Next monday will be the finals for 1500m,my whole class will be down for the event!I guess i finally feel the unity and spirit in my class!.




Thursday, March 23, 2006, 6:50 PM

My targets for the coming mid-year exam!As follows...
English-B4
Mathematics-A1
Chinese-C6
Combined Science-A2
Combined humanities-C6
Poa-A1
L1R4=14pts,L1R5-20pts
Oh gosh,can't imagine how much hard work and effort i have to put in order to achieve this result!Teacher ask us to set this target based on our Ca1 results,so i guess this targets are realistic.I was having a heart to heart chat with my tution teacher.She told me i can try the 3 mths JC admission if i want to taste life in jc.I thought this decision was not a bad idea.But if i would have to go for the admission which means i have got no holiday!I sat down and have a serious thought of which course to take,which school to go to;but i cant seem to make a decision.Right now,I have to make a drastic change in my methods towards studies!I defintely have to obtain a A2 for my MT chinese!i cant afford to retake as i didn;t want to waste my time and effort to study the same subject again since i was given the choice to take the paper earlier.I know i can pass my chinese but it will be grades ranging from C5-c6 which is so unacceptable for me.

Coming to sec 5,so many great changes among my friends.I believe people do change.Change to become bad or good?I don't know.2 weeks ago,I heard my hp vibrating,someone had msg me.I click on my hp button and to my amazement it was him him him!I don't know whether to feel happy or sad.I was elated,jubliant..anything related to happy that can describe my feelings for that moment.I thought i should hate him for all the conflict we had in the past.I thought he will not msg me anymore since i never regard him as my friend from that day onwards.I hesitate for a moment whether to reply his msg,i thought it was foolish and stupid to reply him back.I did not want to reply him as i didnt see the point to remain friends with him.But still,i reply him.He ask me how I was and etc.I told him i was fine.He also realise something but he didnt seem to care.After that day,i didnt want to bother him anymore cause i thought he will change for the better.But since,after few days of smsing and stuff,i realise he didnt change at all for the past 2-3 months.He's still the same old guy which i met the very first day.The guy who flirts around,club very often,not serious in his work,no goals and aims in life.All in all,he's just a useless guy.The first day i saw him,he caught my attention,he just have this charisma which attracts me.I can just feel the strong chemistry between us.Like i say,i dont have crush on guys or fall for someone easily.Till today,i still have this clear picture on this scene.He's living his own life now.I hope he change for the better,for the sake of himself and for others.What else can i say?i only can pray to god hoping he is fine everyday.(Don't be mistaken,i dont like him anymore.)




Wednesday, March 22, 2006, 3:54 PM

I want to obtain a A2 in my coming olevel MT!




Sunday, March 19, 2006, 1:33 AM

I have to change my mindset and my way of looking things in life now.Studies is my top priority now.I want to keep myself busy with school activities.Hopefully,2006 will turn out to be a better year for me.=)




Saturday, March 18, 2006, 2:59 PM

Arghh..Loads of homework left unfinished.I felt that I have slack too much this holiday.Gal,please wake up!!2 more months to o-level MT and 8 more months to olevel!!SIGH..no motivation to do anything.




Thursday, March 16, 2006, 7:50 PM

I presume I deserve someone much more better.I believe that god is fair and equal to everyone.Mentally sick and tired of this whole situation.I want to take a break from everything.Finally it's the march holiday.Practically went out almost everyday except for today which I stay at home to rest.
Saturday(11/3)Went to town with him(gd fren)to walk around but it's getting kind of bored walking there.Taka,heeran,paragon..Don't know where else to walk.Bought my eyeliner at taka.

Sunday(12/3)Went to sangeeth'a bbq birthday party at sebawang park.Well, it wasn't really a bbq party but just a mini gathering to celebrate her birthday.

Monday(13/3)Went out with the girls(hc and ob2) to cold storage to buy the bbq stuff.Later,I spent my whole afternoon sleeping.

Tuesday-Went for my dental appointment.Change my braces colour to pink!It's hurt when i bite,chew or eat.
Wednesday-Meet up with obasans and HC for bbq and swimming.They just make my day.=)




Thursday, March 09, 2006, 5:29 PM

I guess I am expecting too much.
I can't seem to smile nowadays.
I am just acting as if nothing had happened.
I hate the fact that I am escaping from this situation.




5:02 PM
















Seriously have no comments about
it.Low morale,no mood,depressed and fatigued.I can't seem to get out of this damn damn damn situation.I am so hurt.
















I and my friends were too bored during class.So we drew this picture of how she looks like.I'm getting seriously so sick of school.I don't look forward for school everday.In fact,I loath how much I hate going to school.Life sucks.




Tuesday, March 07, 2006, 6:32 PM

Things do not change;people change.




Saturday, March 04, 2006, 8:38 PM

Arghh huh..Had macdonald's for dinner!It's so unhealthy but no choice,I can't think of what to eat.Nice Saturday weekend alone at home have the mood to study or to do my homework 1 whole afternoon doing nothing except for lazing around,watching tv and packing my stuff.Finally during the march holidays,I will be going for my dental appointment.Haven't been going there for a long time because all the appointment date are full.I want to buy mp3! Whenever I listen to "Ye Qu" and " Hen Se Mao Yi",it bought back alot of happy and sad memories.I can't help but think of all the silly mistakes that I had done in the past.




Friday, March 03, 2006, 9:17 PM

Feeling so lethargic nowadays.Slept only 4 hours almost everyday since school reopens.I presume my body system will break down one day and I will fall sick.This week is a bad week,got tests almost everyday.Till everyone is starting to feel the 'TEST FATIGUE".Time passes so fast that it's coming to the end of term 1.Next term(term 2) will be busy period for me,with alot of school activities going on like cheerleading,sports heat,sports day and 2 major exam.Starting next monday will be the first cheerleading practise.Hope everything turn out well.Today's chinese lesson was interesting.Our chi teacher and us have a open discussion about teenagers this days taking nude pictures of themselves as well as the nyp sex video thing.It had really created quite a 'buzz' in my class.I personally feel that there's nothing wrong in taking nude pictures of yourself because it's everyone freedom to do what they like.I do not see it as something obscene.With so many people doing it,i seen it as a common thing to do.

It's gonna be a tough week ahead.=(Just feel that my time managment and how I manage stress is lousy.I can't take stress neither could I take any setbacks.Have been thinking alot these few days,doing some self-reflection of myself.But i can't seem to find out what went wrong.I am just appearing happy when I wasn't.I am actually decluding myself when I wasn't happy.Why must I react in such a way?Can anyone tell me?




Wednesday, March 01, 2006, 7:56 PM

Today's poa test was an unexpected one!All of us study the wrong topic!Haizz..Lessons was fine today and as usual we have games during pe lessons.I guess I didn't sweat much because I was not really very active in playing basketball!*grins*Went to the newater plant today.I must say it was an educational trip.Anyway,my olevel exam dates are out!Must really start to mug hard now.Movitation,discipline and perservence is what I need now.So if anyone caught me online so frequently,maybe you should give me a warning?

Simply can't wait for the year end!=<