I believe time will take my pain away.
:)
Get OUT of my life.
Anticipating for 2009.

Holidays have so far been great but it gets too boring if i got nothing to do at home. Sleeping like 4-5am everyday is like my daily routine. No late night partying so far, just chilling out with friends and hang out till late night. Month to date i've only club twice. Zouk is my fav place but dragonfly simply bores e hell outta of me.

Im getting pretty sick of my lifestyle. No motivation, no aims, no goals. I always prefer my life to be more busy and fulfilling. I'll start planning what to do next week before i complain im bored again.

Very overdue pictures!

Van's bestie 18th birthday on 14th dec at costa sands,pasir ris.

Thanks for being there for me whenever i was down.
Come to think of it, we've been friends for one year plus. Though we've our own cliques but we still take time off to catch up once in awhile.

Part 1-House party @ Vanessa's place. We had games,food and drinks. The games kept us entertain for the whole night.

Xmas tree

Chocolate fondue.

Lyon cooked these chicken wings. simply delicious :)
When all the gals gathered in the room, we started to cam-whored.
Take 1


Take 2Take 3

Take 4
Take 5I curled my hair with some help from vanessa.

Part 2- Went over to alex's friend house to celebrate xmas. It was a imprompt decision for me to join his friends. I wasnt in the mood to club and i didnt want to squeeze within the crowds. So the best place to go its his friend house! Had alcoholic drinks and anyone were getting tipsy and high. Stupid alex's friend want to make me drunk! Too bad alright.:) I managed to hold my liquor well. Not going to vomit ever again.Soe and angela came to join us after that and we started for a game of mahjiong! i lost 6 bucks in total. Lady luck wasnt on me and im sucks in playing. HAHA.



Was arguing with him as usual last week. His indecisiveness of coming down to zouk simply just pissed me off. Upon seeing him, we talk about the past and i realised our thinking just crash, too many differences between us. Thanks for telling me that your heart is totally dead for me. Thanks for telling me that i didnt changed after so long. I should just wake up from my fairy tales dream and move on. Treat it is as i was never good enough for you, everything i do was wrong. Each words that you said, just break my heart time after time. Too much for me to bear. One big lesson learnt never put in all your effort to make things work if you know things is not gonna to work out. I regretted putting so much hopes only to get myself deeply hurt in the end. I wasnt only hurt but was deeply in hurt. Dont keep saying that you're the only one who can understand me, in fact you dont. Dont keep saying that all i thought was only myself and i didnt spare a thought for you. Your heart is totally dead and the burden is relieved, whos the one suffering silently here? Each day shes just trying her best to forget every single thing about you. But when the night gets lonely and dark, she starts thinking what did she do to suffer those heartache though she know her pain is nothing compared to those who lose their loved ones, whose r/s is much worser than hers. She know life still goes on.

All i want for christmas wasnt you but is to forget you.
The day when it no longer hurts will be the day when we'll talk again.
Meanwhile, i just want to be alone.
Even being friends seem so difficult, the urge to talk to him, looking at my hp several times hoping that he'll call/sms. It make me seem like im e biggest fool.
I dont want you to affect my life cause i know i can be happier.

Make me a happy girl >3

Five days of work ended on friday.

A series of unfortunate things happened.
Firstly, i fall sick.It sucks to fall sick at this moment. Weather have been pretty bad these days and almost my whole family are falling sick.
Secondly, my acer charger have officially spolit which means i got to go down to the service centre to change a new one. It started when i smell burning smell coming from the charger, my heart stopped for a moment only to realise that its burn!! I got to this habit of switching on my laptop for one whole day and after a long period of use,it has offically died on me!

My blog looks boring with no pictures. im kind of lazy to post it up.
Its been a long time since i last went shopping. ARGH. I need to shop very badly!
I need more jobs opportunity to finance my cravings for shopping,food and clubbing.
10 weeks of holiday, im counting down like real soon.
Xmas, new year and CNY!
I love CNY becos...
I get to sleep,eat,gamble,collect angbaos and go for gatherings.

im looking forward to next week's xmas celebration with friends. :)

Holiday had started im busy working. I learn a lot during these 2 days about doing stock, cash flow, handling customers questions, handling difficult customers and how to deal with it. There are still plenty of things that i need to improve in.Though i made small mistakes, im thankful that my lady boss is quite forgiving. My workplace is kinda of far. At kovan!! I take 1 hr to travel through and from to work, its tiring but for e sake of money everything is worth the time and energy.
We made mistakes but we learn and grow from it.

2008 is ending real soon and i've been reading friends blog stating their 2009 goals and new year resolution.
2008 had been full of ups and downs for me.
The happy, sad,wonderful and down moments.
Till the day when i know we're not going to be e same again.
Now im going to start mine soon here!
1. Have a strict diet and exercise plan
2. Spend my money wisely
3. When the term starts, stay focus and get good grades.My GPA is damn lousy. Dad is going to sponsor me to go SIM provided if i can get in.
4.Driving license(its a must)
5.Learn yoga(it have been always my wish to learn)

Retook my basic theory and i actually failed.(dont laugh ok)
Im not shy or embarrassed to admit and i really study damn hard.
Probably e same effort i put in for my fav subjects during o level.
I always believe that basic theory is not something which is so easy to fail and im disappointed that i actually failed quite a number of times.
No matter how my friends laugh and make fun of me, i dont put it to heart seriously.
Alright, i admit im pretty upset and demoralised.
Im not dumb or silly but why is it so hard to pass?!!
Kill me please
:(
Even my parents were utterly disappointed.

It will be my fifth attempt, to be exact i failed 4 times because i overslept once.
Basic theory seem easy to others but it always seem difficult for me.
Well oh well, marilyn is not giving up but she still pin high hopes on getting her license latest by end of next year.
Gonna book extra theory trial practice to prepare myself for e test next month.
While i only can envy my close friends, who failed their basic theory yet passed on e second attempt. Their advice to me was go for the trial practice and keep doing it.
All e best to you ppl for yr FTT and TP.

Long weekends ahead! Tmr is a public holiday and im skipping sch for a job interview on tuesday which means 5 days of holiday straight! Im bored of slacking at home and i hope i can find a job soon to earn some income.Time for me to do something productive if not im going to become a potential slacker soon.

Have been playing facebook-pet society for the whole day and still not getting bored of it. So hooked up to this game now.
This whole week was great, spending with my friends.
Went to zouk/phuture on wednesday and skipped school on thurs. The feeling was great, need not attend the damn PHP lesson. Reach zouk ard 9 plus and phuture's quota have already reached the limit, i and angie were damn disappointed but we were lucky to bump into her friends who manage to sign us in. Phew :)) Sandy came to join us after tat but left early.

Testing out my new camera phone.

In school..

Steamboat & Eski Bar on saturday.

I've deleted the previous entry due to some reasons. Whatever it is, we're still on talking terms. Im happy with the things between us now. Definitely not as close as before. I guess talking to you was the last thing on my mind when we stopped talking to each other for 2 months. During those 2 months, I was remaining very cool & calm just to find out what I really want. I've sorted out my thoughts of why we ended this way and why did things turned out ugly. No longer dwelling over the past and to expect a miracle to happen.
You used to my be great companion and will always be my friend.
The deep scar will be forever there.

But im definitely stronger than before.
Promise a proper update soon with pics!