Holidays have so far been great but it gets too boring if i got nothing to do at home. Sleeping like 4-5am everyday is like my daily routine. No late night partying so far, just chilling out with friends and hang out till late night. Month to date i've only club twice. Zouk is my fav place but dragonfly simply bores e hell outta of me.

Im getting pretty sick of my lifestyle. No motivation, no aims, no goals. I always prefer my life to be more busy and fulfilling. I'll start planning what to do next week before i complain im bored again.

Very overdue pictures!

Van's bestie 18th birthday on 14th dec at costa sands,pasir ris.

Thanks for being there for me whenever i was down.
Come to think of it, we've been friends for one year plus. Though we've our own cliques but we still take time off to catch up once in awhile.

Part 1-House party @ Vanessa's place. We had games,food and drinks. The games kept us entertain for the whole night.

Xmas tree

Chocolate fondue.

Lyon cooked these chicken wings. simply delicious :)
When all the gals gathered in the room, we started to cam-whored.
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Take 5I curled my hair with some help from vanessa.

Part 2- Went over to alex's friend house to celebrate xmas. It was a imprompt decision for me to join his friends. I wasnt in the mood to club and i didnt want to squeeze within the crowds. So the best place to go its his friend house! Had alcoholic drinks and anyone were getting tipsy and high. Stupid alex's friend want to make me drunk! Too bad alright.:) I managed to hold my liquor well. Not going to vomit ever again.Soe and angela came to join us after that and we started for a game of mahjiong! i lost 6 bucks in total. Lady luck wasnt on me and im sucks in playing. HAHA.



Was arguing with him as usual last week. His indecisiveness of coming down to zouk simply just pissed me off. Upon seeing him, we talk about the past and i realised our thinking just crash, too many differences between us. Thanks for telling me that your heart is totally dead for me. Thanks for telling me that i didnt changed after so long. I should just wake up from my fairy tales dream and move on. Treat it is as i was never good enough for you, everything i do was wrong. Each words that you said, just break my heart time after time. Too much for me to bear. One big lesson learnt never put in all your effort to make things work if you know things is not gonna to work out. I regretted putting so much hopes only to get myself deeply hurt in the end. I wasnt only hurt but was deeply in hurt. Dont keep saying that you're the only one who can understand me, in fact you dont. Dont keep saying that all i thought was only myself and i didnt spare a thought for you. Your heart is totally dead and the burden is relieved, whos the one suffering silently here? Each day shes just trying her best to forget every single thing about you. But when the night gets lonely and dark, she starts thinking what did she do to suffer those heartache though she know her pain is nothing compared to those who lose their loved ones, whose r/s is much worser than hers. She know life still goes on.

All i want for christmas wasnt you but is to forget you.
The day when it no longer hurts will be the day when we'll talk again.
Meanwhile, i just want to be alone.
Even being friends seem so difficult, the urge to talk to him, looking at my hp several times hoping that he'll call/sms. It make me seem like im e biggest fool.
I dont want you to affect my life cause i know i can be happier.

Make me a happy girl >3