Still couldnt find any job till now. I guess i just got to register to fate or im just plain unlucky that the economic is so bad now. Send almost 10-20 resumes for the past 2 weeks but only receive 2 calls. Its either the interview was unsuccessful, not to my liking or they have enough people. I dont want to take any job assignment that is not towards my liking or passion cause i think i will lost the motivation to work. Still left with 2 mths for my holidays, i got to find lots of stuff to occupy myself.

Meanwhile, i'll just take my driving lessons and book for as many slots as possible. FTT next month, hope to bring back good news to u guys!

Sigh, its february now. Yet, ive still not fulfil any goals in 2009. I dont want to waste my time idling around and not achieving anything. My aim is to learn yoga and get my driving licence by this year. I dont think it is a difficult task to accomplish provided whether if i want to do it.

Looking back at 2008, i was too pre-occupied with what i thought will be a beautiful ending, putting in a lot of effort and wasted my time. I was blinded. Till e extent that even till now when i recalled about the past, it pains me to think about this person when i know very clearly everything is gone. I've got to curb my feelings for him. Its terrible when e night gets dark when i got no one to turn to except myself. I want to give myself a break for one year to get over everything. Its tiring to keep thinking about it everyday when you know it is a very heavy burden in your heart that you can never seem to get rid off. Sometimes i choose to stay at home to have some peaceful and quiet moments for myself without any distraction. Confidence?faith?hope?I lost all of it.. Falling head over heels for someone is e last thing on my mind.
Whats up on V.day? It doesnt seem impt anymore.. Not now definitely.

I was watching tv just now and something stucked upon me. It take both hands to clap and if one tries so hard to pull e string and the other one is not doing anything, nothing will work out. Why not just let go and you'll eventually find another pair of hands which will be suitable for you?
I thought that was very true. I shouldnt reflect back on the past anymore and should instead choose to let go and look forward. I dont know what is holding me back , perhaps its e feelings. What's gone is gone, theres nothing for me to feel sad about.

Whenever someone gets close to me, i tend to have this fear and the constant thoughts of the opposite party wanting to hurt me. Im not implying that to all my friends. Obviously, i trust all my close friends a lot. I mean someone who is a total complete stranger to me. It is hard for me to put my trust on someone again. Its that difficult,seriously.

I hope im really really fine......