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Friday, August 28, 2009, 3:41 PM

My blogspot is in a total mess now.Im thinking of switching over to a new blog and Im kind of lost touch to blogging. Life have been hell good for me and holidays have started quite awhile. Meanwhile, I enjoyed slacking at home for now and occasionally chilling out with friends. I dont need my holidays to be a happening one, just a good mixture of partying, going out, good food, working and travelling! A short check of my bank account and it had been depleting so much that I cant help but to say that I really need a part-time job for now. My monthly allowance is kind of pathetic but I dont grumble and complained or ask for more from my parents because that is their hard-earned money. If only I am still holding the job that I had last year perhaps I will not feel so tight of cash now. Partly because of the huge amount I spend on driving and the monthly insurance that I got to pay, its a huge burden to me now. Pardon friends who always ask me to go out everyday but I cant go out so frequently considering factors like eating out and cabbing home last minute. I really got to save for rainy days and for future uses. Totally cant imagine if I start studying in UNI, I will have lots of burden like paying debts to my parents and holding a part-time job to finance my shopping and clubbing. Im thankful that I am not a shop-a-holic or a hardcore clubber. Though I really like to shop just like any other girls, I got to restrict myself time to time.Money is not something that is drop down from the sky, you got to work hard to earn it. As I grew older, I realized that there are many things to worry about,having enough money is one issue. No money no talk. That is how realistic the world is becoming. Having a diploma is simply not enough consider the fact there are so many private uni around in singpapore and everyone is getting a degree for the seek of getting a better pay. If you dont have a degree, you are going to lose out in this competitive world.


Looking back at the past one year, the old me, I definitely have changed my perceptions of things in a much broaden way. I no longer look at things at just a focus point. I met different people and been through different stages of life and I cant help but to feel I've grown up. The decision of letting go and giving up this whole r/s its definitely worthwhile. It mould me to a better, independent and a stronger person. I learn to stand up from the scratch just like how a baby who doesnt knows how to walk when he/she was born out. The dark period were the hardest to get by but I still managed to stand up and sleep peacefully every night. No more sobbing cries or heartache. No more, and its not going to happen again. I've seen the worse of the worse so what can anything bring me down?Absolutely not. No more grudges,hated and love. Its just purely me. I love being who I am and I am happy with my life now. Its had been a wonderful 1 year break :) I broke my silence after two months simply because too may thoughts were on my mind and I cant seem to process my thoughts and type how I feel exactly. But now I know exactly what I really want and the direction I am heading to.