Taken from someone's blog. I kinda like what she wrote. Totally explains how I feel sometimes. Sometimes we dwell and yearn for certain things in life that we know will never be ours but we just have this hope and anticipation that things will goes our way. But the truth and reality overwhelms everything and you find it hard to catch up with the pace because the truth is, it is never meant to be yours. So much of saying, I've given up on what is so called love. I dont yearn for love so much like I did in the past and I've changed to a new person with my own goals and expectation to fulfill. Thanks to someone who push me to the bottom pit and make me stand up strongly again. You can laugh at whose the biggest loser now but I'm definitely not the one.

Being alone at times makes me discover more about myself but people tend to have this perception that I'm a loner but the truth is, it calms my mood and make me realize what have I done for the past few days or months. It is about discovering more about yourself, loving yourself and doing some soul-searching. When you're out with your friends, you wont have the time to do it why not spent quality time on yourself and discover and understand something about yourself that you didnt expect?If friends know me for a long time, they knew I dont hang out with a group of friends everyday because I dont see a point in doing that and its not because I dont value friendship as much as you guys do. A good friend doesnt need to meet everyday but a good friend is someone who is there to help you whenever you need them. Though I might not be good in consoling my friends, at least I lend a listening ear and be there to listen to them. Ever since, I hang out with different groups of friends, the truth is most of them dont understand me and they thinks i've this heck-care-attitude inside me. I cant live up to everyone's expectations and I really need alot of spare time alone and going out everyday doesnt makes me a happier person. Only being alone allows me to rest sufficiently. A weekly or monthly catch up will be good not everyday. True enough, I cant hang out in a particular group for long cause I can never meet up to people's expectation and I really need lots of freedom to do whatever I want.

You can have this love and hate me and you're given a choice to do that cause to me you can never please anyone in the world so just be yourself cause only your good friends will love you for who you are regardless of whatever decisions you made in life. :)

Two blogs entry that I've taken below :
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End of the year kidda make me reminisce about the past again.
I wouldn't help but laugh at myself for being so naive one year ago (:
However, the truth is that i have never regret making an effort to make thing work out then. It's really okay as thing have developed to this state. Perhaps, this is the best outcome that we can think of and all we can do is to accept reality. "Just because something good ends doesn't mean something better won't begin."
Yes, this is true. Life goes on, earth won't stop moving just without the absence of one. There is also no point holding onto something that left long time ago, cus sooner or later you'll realize something are just not meant to be in the first place.

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